The Secret of Three in the Morning

My name is Margarida, I am 73 years old, and I have faced many storms in my life.
I thought that when I reached old age, I would finally find peace with my family.

After my husband’s death, I left our old brick-and-mud house and moved to the city to live with my only son—Daniel—and his wife, Olivia.

At first, I thought I would be happy.
Daniel was the director of a large company and lived in a luxurious apartment in the heart of São Paulo.
Everything was shining: the lights, the furniture, the smiles…
But I soon discovered that behind that glow there was a cold that came not from the weather, but from the soul.

In the evenings, we hardly ever had dinner together.

“Daniel, aren’t you going to have dinner with us?” I asked, serving the rice carefully.

He just looked at the clock.
“I have a job, Mom. You eat.

Olivia looked down.
“Just a little bit, love… the soup is still hot,” he whispered.

“I said I’m not hungry!” Enough! Daniel shouted, banging his spoon on the table.

I felt my heart stop.
That gaze—cold, hard—was the same one my husband had before… before hurting me.

Olivia was silent, forcing a smile.
“Don’t worry, Mom… he is tired, nothing more.

But I saw the truth.
On his wrist was a purple mark, deep and recent.

That night I couldn’t sleep.
At three in the morning, I was awakened by the sound of water running in the bathroom.

I frowned.
“Why does Daniel bathe at this hour?” I thought.

But the sound was not continuous… it was mixed with something else.
Crying? Groans?

I approached slowly. The bathroom door was ajar, and a yellowish light filtered through the crack.
I held my breath and looked through the crack.

What I saw almost made me faint.

Daniel was not alone.
Olivia was sitting on the floor, soaked, shaking, with tears that mingled with the water.
Daniel, kneeling in front of her, washed his hands in despair, repeating over and over again:
“I swear… I didn’t want to do it… I didn’t want to do it…

The blood mixed with the water and disappeared down the drain.

I screamed.
“Daniel!” What did you do?

He raised his head, pale as marble.
“Mom… it was an accident… I lost control…

I ran to Olivia. His arm had a deep cut, but he was still breathing.
With trembling hands, I called an ambulance.

Those minutes seemed like an eternity.
Daniel cried, begging for forgiveness, saying that he was no longer himself, that work, alcohol and anger had consumed him.

Olivia survived.
Daniel was arrested that same night.

The apartment, once full of luxury and prestige, became a tomb of silence and guilt.

And I… Every time I wake up at three in the morning and hear the sound of water or rain against the window, I remember that night:
the water, the crying, the blood.

And I ask myself:
At what point did my son stop being the sweet boy I raised, to become a man lost in his own darkness?

Even with a broken heart, I continue to pray every night…
so that God will forgive him,
and so that no mother will have to see what I saw that morning.